YM778.TV Chapter 113: It’s not my fault
Chapter 113: It’s not my fault
Translator-Rhapsodite
Editor-Agneya, Proofreader-Ghostie
Slight warning: Suicide attempt
As Wei Fuyuan was being kissed, he closed his eyes instinctively.
In the oppressive darkness, he experienced a breath of tenderness through a pair of warm, soft lips on his own .
The wistful touch immediately made Wei Fuyuan, who was still a little convoluted with the influx of new information, abandon all rationale at the moment.
He held the back of Bei Quan’s head, akin to a thirsty traveler in the desert finally tasting the first drop of necter, pressing over Bei Quan’s body fiercely as they sucked and bit, wrapped around each other’s lips and tongue. The momentum of their entanglement was steadily robbing him of air.
Bei Quan’s lips were very soft, and he savored them earnestly using the tip of his tongue. There was a faint taste of blood, which was likely from the wound he had bitten out in order to save him.
This is all too good, Wei Fuyuan felt a sense of excitement that originated from instinct.
——It was really too tempting.
Wei Fuyuan didn’t release Bei Quan until the air in his lungs was nearly exhausted.
He felt his body stirring up with a clear reaction.
——It feels so good.
Wei Fuyuan thought to himself.
——Since he was able to feel so much, it was evident that he was truly in love with Bei Quan.
Thinking of this, Wei Fuyuan’s heart clamored excitedly. He closed his eyes and slowly began to grope downwards.
——Wait!
When he touched Bei Quan’s flexible waist, Wei Fuyuan finally noticed that something didn’t seem right.
Even though Wei Fuyuan was now hot and his thoughts were hard to calm, he was not completely lost in such sensual feelings yet.
He clearly remembered that in his eyes, Bei Quan was a strong man with bronze skin and muscles, with a height of nearly 1.9 meters. If that was the case, how could the hand feel so slender and soft!?
Wei Fuyuan’s eyes suddenly opened wide.
Bei Quan, or rather the Bei Quan he was familiar with, was lying with his back on the bed. His eyes were crescent-shaped, his chestnut pupils were faintly glowing with a watery shine, and his thin lips looked pitiful due to all the rough kissing and biting. They were red and swollen, and he was smiling softly.
“You-……”
Wei Fuyuan was bewildered.
“You aren’t…..that……?”
Wei Fuyuan traced the outline of Bei Quan’s chest muscles with his hand to make sure.
Bei Quan finally couldn’t help it and burst out laughing.
“Haha, hahahahaha…..”
Bei Quan laughed so hard that he actually curled up like a shrimp on the bed.
“Hahaha, hahahahaha……”
Wei Fuyuan: “……”
Even a husky should be able to understand at this time that he was thoroughly fooled by Bei Quan!
“So that was not what you looked like in your ‘previous life’, right?”
In a fit of anger, Wei Fuyuan grabbed Bei Quan’s shoulder and harshly turned him over.
“You, you really‐-”
He was so angry that even his voice started to tremble.
“All this while, I have done my psychological construction in vain!
“Ha, ha, ha ……”
Bei Quan raised his hand to wipe away the tears that came out because of his uncontrollable laughter.
“I can change my appearance at will …..did you forget about Dai Bo Qian?”
Wei Fuyuan gasped.
——Really stupid! I’m so stupid!
He cursed aggrievedly in his heart.
When he went to the USA, Bei Quan had used a blindfolding trick to disguise himself as Dai Bo Qian, using a third person’s identity to deceive, and even the customs at the airport could not detect any abnormality about him.
Just now, Bei Quan used the same trick again, turning himself into a muscular man completely outside his aesthetics. He doesn’t know whether it was to test him or to tease him. Eitherways, it was absolutely intentional!
After thinking it through clearly, Wei Fuyuan felt even more angry.
His anger burned from his heart and took shape as courage. Without saying a word, he held the person down, kissed and licked, gnawed and bit, and rubbed Bei Quan ruthlessly, using so much force that it seemed as if he wanted to peel Bei Quan’s skin off, break his bones, and devour him entirely.
The reaction to the kissing, which had been provoked, became more and more vivid.
When the blood swept straight to the top of his head, Wei Fuyuan almost wanted to ignore his reason and take the person right then and there.
It’s just that he is a queer who was aware of his sexuality early on. Although he hasn’t tried it himself, in this modern society with abundant information explosion, as long as he knew where to look for information, there was no ‘knowledge’ that couldn’t be found.
Therefore, during an intercourse between man and man, Wei Fuyuan very clearly knew that, if he were to act recklessly without preparation, neither the attacker nor the receiver would experience the full pleasure, but on the contrary, they also may be injured.
Thinking of this, he could only stifle an important part of his body that was ready to move energetically. After taking a deep breath, he let go of Bei Quan and sat up.
“So, how did you look in your last life?”
Wei Fuyuan wiped his moist lips with the back of his hand and asked in an exasperated voice.
Bei Quan hooked the corners of his lips and smiled, and said, “I don’t remember.”
Even though Bei Quan had forgotten most of the past, what he was in his previous life, he still had a faint memory.
Because he died in a corpse field, his body had been immersed in a stream of Yin Qi and resentment for hundreds of years and had not been corrupted in any way.
As a result, Bei Quan can be claimed to have guarded his corpse until he cultivated into a partial ghost immortal.
However, it was because Bei Quan remembered that, he didn’t want to turn into the real appearance of his previous life in front of Wei Fuyuan.
One reason is that more than 650 years have passed, and Bei Quan really doesn’t want to recall more. The other reason is that Bei Quan knew that the appearance of his last life would also be very appealing to Wei Fuyuan, and may even make the other person feel good about him more easily than his current body.
Bei Quan admitted that he was a little jealous of himself.
“Well, don’t think too much about it.”
Bei Quan also sat up from the bed and gently patted Wei Fuyuan’s puffy cheeks.
“It’s getting late, there’s still two hours until dawn, get some rest.”
Saying that he smiled faintly.
“Are you planning to sleep here with me? Or are you planning to go back to your attic?”
Wei Fuyuan was stunned for a second and then came back to his senses.
The witty student Xiao Wei immediately realized that this was the best time for him to enter the room in an upright manner. Maybe he could not only stay in the ‘Sāntúchuān’ but also bid farewell to his small attic and sleep in the same bed as Bei Quan.
“I..my luggage is still in the apartment hotel!”
He immediately put on a fierce and arrogant demeanor, took off his coat, and shook away the quilt that had been over Bei Quan’s side, “I-I’ll sleep here!”
Bei Quan nodded and said ‘okay’ with a smile.
Without saying more, he also took off his clothes and laid on the same bed with Wei Fuyuan.
———————-
August 3, 5:00 am.
In an old apartment, a girl woke up with a jolt.
“Ah, ouch, ouch!”
When Xu Lei opened her eyes, she felt her eyesight was black and her surrounding was spinning, she couldn’t tell the north from the south, and naturally, she didn’t notice that she was actually lying on the edge of the bed, so she struggled to roll over, and as soon as she moved, she rolled off the narrow single bed and fell heavily on the floor, and before she could feel the pain, she covered her chest and threw up.
Until she vomited all the chyme in her stomach and even the yellowish brown bile, Xu Lei felt that the almost suffocating nausea had finally eased a little.
This is not the first time she had a “precognitive dream”, but the first time she was so clearly aware of what her dream meant.
Yes, Xu Lei finally realized one thing, that is, her so-called “precognitive ability” may not be a mere dream at all, but an unconscious intentional killing.
“No……it can’t…..”
Xu Lei laid on her vomit, hugged her arm with her dirty hands, her nails were deeply embedded in the flesh, and unconsciously pinched out crescent shaped blood marks one after another.
“It can’t be …..it? wasn’t supposed to be like this…..”
Her throat stung with an acidic twinge, and her voice trembled noticeably.
“I ….. I …..it can’t be me, it won’t be me……”
But no matter how much she denied it, Xu Lei could still clearly recall everything in her dream.
Xu Lei knew that she went to ‘find’ Wei Fuyuan, and almost forced the senior to jump from the top of the apartment hotel.
The reason she did this was because she subconsciously wanted to make the “precognitive dream” come true.
The ‘truth’ that Xu Lei had always deeply resisted and denied, by all means, was now clearer than ever.
Yes, starting from her father’s accident to her sister’s car accident, and the successive anchor suicides, all of them were of her own doing!
Thinking of this, the girl bit her lip and tears came out of her eyes.
As she sobbed, she laughed frenziedly.
“I killed someone…..hahaha……I killed someone …..”
Xu Lei staggered up, scratching her arms unconsciously, trying to calm herself with the pain.
But it wasn’t half as useful.
After lying to herself for twenty years, when the truth was spread out in front of her, Xu Lei almost went crazy, not knowing how she should face it at all.
——No wonder my sister told me not to say it!
——No wonder I can’t speak of it!
——If not,
——If I can hold back…
Xu Lei pulled at her hair crazily.
——If I hadn’t said anything, they wouldn’t have died at all!
At this moment, Xu Lei thought of ending her life.
After killing so many people and committing so many sins, Xu Lei felt that she had lost the courage to live.
Thinking of this, she pulled open the drawer, pulled out a knife from it, and slashed down towards her wrist.
First, there was an icy coldness, then a sharp pain that burned through.
A thin blood mark surfaced on the girl’s slender wrist, not deep, but the pain felt very distinct.
Xu Lei jolted, and suddenly the whole person came to her senses.
She was as stiff as a clay mold on the edge of the desk, staring blankly at the line of blood on her wrist, and did not move for a long time.
The wound soon stopped bleeding.
“No……”
The girl’s lips opened and closed slightly, squeezing out a vague airy sound.
“I……I don’t want to die……”
Whether it was the “precognitive dreams” or the ability to kill, it’s not what she wants.
No one had ever told her what it was all about, let alone taught her what to do.
“Yeah…..”
The girl said as if to herself.
“It’s not my fault…… it was never my fault ……”
——Since it wasn’t her fault, why should she atone for her sins with death?
She put down the knife and slowly lifted her head, her gaze straight ahead, and looked out the window into the hours of deepest night before dawn.
——If no one else knows about this……
Xu Lei thought thus.
——Then, why do I have to die?