Chapter 236 - Planning For The Tour - V
Adeline stared at what he had said with visible disbelief on her face. "You," she pointed at his face, "you won\'t take no one this?"
"No." He said firmly.
She scoffed and sat back with her arms folded. "You take no or not, anything that you would be receiving from me on this matter is clear denial."
"Give it to me all you want, I won\'t take it." He shook hisnhead.
Adaline proceeded to give him a very sweet, honey dripping, smile, "Shove it up your butt then."
Xavier stared at her with an eyebrow raised. "You know not many books have it written that Penguins are a violent species." He narrowed his eyes on her, "perhaps you are something else?"
Her face remained nonchalant. "I have been human and I have not been hiding it."
"That is a below the belt jab," he pointed at her, " who has been teaching you all of this?"
She shrugged but did not give him a reply.
He sighed and leaned again.
The silence was no longer awkward and deafening as it previously had been. Now, it was something that they both had become comfortable with.
When they began their relationship, in the very early stages, Adeline would never shut up in Xavier love. She would keep on talking and include more topics in the times they were so intelligent and required great intellect that he used to be shocked about a human without any education on the matter having such strong and bold opinions.
Now he could just long to hear that voice. It was so difficult to talk without having one punch a jab onto the throat of another.
He could have never imagined that in the relationship between the two of them, they could go through so many changes in such a short time. The changes that left scars deeper than ever.
"I would really love it if you said yes." He confessed. "With what you told me we need to have a thorough cleansing in the kingdom and for both of us. We need to get to the bottom of this." Perhaps the last line would give her the bait and have her curiosity come forward.
"I don\'t know," she muttered, "I don\'t know what\'s going on. I never know what\'s going on and it pisses me off so much." She revealed as she stared at her plate going on a roll, "Everytime they come and explain to me and I have so many questions and it just. . ." She sighed.
" Just?" He probed.
She shrugged quickly, " just tells me how much I am out of the loop on everything that I am inside. Everyone wants to kill me, everyone, they want me to find a way to get someone back and I lost people, you lost people, what about them?"
Xavier gave her a sad and small smile. "We move on." He said. "We move on because that is the only thing that we can do and that is right."
Adeline raised her eyes and stared at him. " What if I don\'t want to move on? What if I want to stay where I am because I\'m not sure what will happen next and here I know that I am fine. . "
Xavier understood what she meant. It was not difficult at all to understand where she was coming from, especially with what she had been through in her life and he knew that he wanted to stay where she knew what was happening next.
"What if I ask you for that one chance to protect you from everything else?" He spoke up after sometime, "that one chance where If I fuck up, you won\'t ever have to see my face again."
"One chance? Last one?" She repeated, " are you aware that you never asked me for the first chance?" She smiled. "You just took the chance whether I liked it or not. I was not aware of that, so how does this help?"
"I don\'t know," Xavier admitted openly, " but all I can do here is ask for the chance and that is exactly what I am doing. If there is something else that you want and that you think I can provide instead of this go ahead and ask."
"Oh, but there is nothing that I want." She admitted and he could feel that she was being helpless at the point because she had no sense of direction.
Adeline breathed the long sigh before standing up. "This was nice," she waved her hand around awkwardly at the dinner table and the food arranged, "thank you for the effort but it seems like it all just goes down the drain."
"Perhaps we should put that on the drain then." Xavier commented, making her laugh.
"I am going to go and have dessert with everyone." She pointed to the hallway behind them and walked away.
Just as the other hallway appeared from there she knew that Xavier could not see her from, she stopped and leaned against the wall.
What was she doing?
A chance for something she needed repeatedly and had been working on it and she just denied that.
But on the other side it was to be considered that it had been six months to date and now she had moved on.
She sighed harshly as she let herself slip down from the wall and her butt met with the cold tiled floor. This was very confusing and now she seems to have no sense of direction.
It was like the two sides were pulling her towards each direction. One way she could give him a chance and see how it went or the other where she could stay here right where she was but both of them gave her just as anxiety as the other did.
"Adeline," she looked up to find him leaning against the wall, "come here." He said as he held his hand out.
Without thinking twice Adeline stood up and walked into his arms seeking the comfort that she needed for the moment.
She sighed the contentedness she felt from it. It calmed her down immediately.
For once she was grateful for him following her.
"Go back now?" He offered but did not move his arms away.
She nodded. Pulling apart from him, Adeline started walking toward the door as he silently followed.